| Location | Blackpool |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Birth | 12/06/2008 |
| Date of Death | 12/06/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,877 since 27/10/2008 |
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my much loved and very much wanted baby tarik grew wings and flew to heaven after only 14 weeks with
me , not long some may think but it was long enough for me to love him eternally, he will always be
a part of me forever, and ill miss him for always!!!! he has left an empty space in our family and
everyone wishes he was still here , sleep well my tiny precious little man , mummy loves you so much
xxxxxxxxxxx
This is Tariks story... i went for my
scan on the 12 june, i was 14 weeks pregnant, i was excited to see my baby for the first time. i
arrived at hospital and after waiting a short while i was called in, i lay on the couch and waited
for the image to come on the screen.. then i heard the worst words ever.. im sorry wendy but i cant
find a heartbeat ,im afraid your baby has died.. i was just in total shock. how could my much
wanted baby just die ?? all i could think of was what would i tell the kids ? i was absolutly
gutted. i was given a picture of him but i didnt dare look just yet. i was told to go home and phone
back in the morning to arrange what to do next. i came home in a daze...my baby had gone..just
gone.. when i got home i went to my room and opened the envelope with the scan pic in, what i saw
took my breathe away.. he was beautiful, just beautiful i broke down then and just couldnt stop
crying. the next few days passed in a blur, i had to go in on tues for a d.c and it was only
thursday how was i gonna carry my dead baby around for 5 more days. but somehow i did and it kind of
felt nice to keep him with me for a bit longer. The day before we took down his cot and put his tiny
clothes away, i was so very very sad i thought my heart would break. although id only been pregnant
a little while i loved this little boy with all my heart and soul.. i decide to call him Tarik.
Tarik was supposed to be a nik name for him but now it seemed to feel right so he will always be
known as baby Tarik... on the day of the op i arrived at the hospital, i was surprisingly calm as i
was shown to my bed, i knew when i woke my baby would be gone forever.. when i got home i was
numb, didnt know how to feel, everyone just seemed to get on with life but i felt mine had stopped,
i felt so empty and alone in my grief.. the main thing that kept me going was my little boy Kai, he
was only 15 months and he needed me to be as normal as possible.. he was and still is the light of
my life.. A few weeks later i got the results back and the reason Tarik died was because my
placenta had tumours on it and now i would have to be carefully monitored to make sure it didnt
spread to me.. the next few months were very worrying and stressful i was told not to get pregnant
for at least a year...a whole year i was devastated.. I had nothing to remember my baby by except a
scan picture which i treasured.. i made a memory box and put a few things in there with some poems
and stuff. I still miss my baby boy so so much and wish with all my heart he was here today, but
losing him has made me a better person, he made me realize how precious life is. i will love you
eternally baby Tarik and i will never forget about you no matter what..sleep tight my baby
angel...love always mummy xxx
xxx big bro xxx
hi my precious little man, mummy loves u so much, we went to the 4d scan today and saw your baby brother he looks absolutley beautiful. please dont think he:ll replace you . we;ll never forget you but he has given me a reason to smile again, you will always have a special place in my heart, please watch over your baby brother and keep him safe , i think were going to call him Devin.. well bye for now and sleep well and always remember mummy loves you eternally xxxxx
xx a mothers grief xx
You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go
How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see
You ask me how I'm holding up,
but do you really care?
The moment I start to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely,you see,
friends no longer come around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.
Everyone avoids me now,
I guess they don't know what to say
They told me I'll be there for you,
then turned and walked away.
Call me if you need me,
that's what everybody said,
But how can I call and screaming to the phone,
My God, my child is dead?
No one will let me say the words
I need to say
Why does a mothers grief
scare everyone away?
I am tired of pretending
my heart hammers in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest
If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.
Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say " My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand."
Just hold my hand and listen
that's all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
it's alright if you do to.
I swear that I'll remember till the day
I'm very old,
the friend who sat and held my hand
and let me bare my soul.
Precious Child
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
love u eternally little man xxx
♥♥ WITH LOVE ♥♥
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~~ The Angels ~~
May angels rest beside your door
May you hear their voices sing
May you feel their loving care for you
May you hear their peace bells ring
May angels always care for you
And not let you trip and fall
May they bear you up on angels wings
May they keep you standing tall
May they whisper wisdom in your ear
May they touch you when you need
May they remove you from each trace of fear
May they keep you from feeling greed
May they fill you with their presence
May they show you love untold
May they always stand beside you
And make you ever bold
May they teach you what you want to know
About life here and here-after
May they fill you always with their love
And give you the gift of laughter
~xXx~ ~xXx~ ~xXx~ ~xXx~ ~xXx~
~~ Angel In My Pocket ~~
I am a tiny angel
I'm smaller than your thumb
I live in peoples pockets
That's where I have my fun
I don't suppose you've seen me
I'm too tiny to detect
Though i'm with you all the time
I doubt we've ever met
Before I was an angel...
I was a fairy in a flower
God himself hand picked me
And gave me angel power
Now god has many angels
That he trains in angel pools
We become his eyes and ears and hands
We become his special tools
And because god is so busy
With way too much to do
He said that my assignment
Is to keep close watch on you
When he tucked me in your pocket
He blessed you with angel care
Then told me to never leave you
And I vowed always to be there
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~~ Guardian Angels ~~
When angels sense you need them
and angels always do.....
they come unseen from everywhere
to help and comfort you
they hover close beside you
till all your cares are gone
till they can see you're ready
once again to carry on
Then some of them may fly away
and take their gentle touch
to other hearts that need
the love of angels very much
but one at least stays with you
as your constant friend and guide
for guardian angels never leave
they're always at your side
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Lots Of Love Always ~~ Elaine...x♥x
xxxx footprints xxxx
These are my footprints,
so perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints
never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
for now I have wings.
These tiny footprints were meant
for other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
in the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
if you just give me the chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
and call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
are found on Mommy and Daddy's hearts.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll never truly part."
love from your baby angel Tarik xx
xx for my mummy and daddy xx
I am your special Angel
That grew my wings to soon
I now live in gods magical garden
On fluffy clouds beyond the moon.
There are lots of other angels here
who are all friends to me
we gather on the stars at night
We twinkle for you to see,
And when it's time to rest our wings
To snuggle up for the night
All the bigger Angels
Tuck us in and kiss us all goodnight. love from your tiny angel Tarik xxxx
xxx big brother xx
hi little man just wanna let u know i had my scan everything was fine and your gonna have a little brother.....im so so pleased , please watch over him and keep him safe..love you and miss you forever Tarik xx
xx i miss you xx
I woke up this morning
.....and I missed you
I got out of bed
.....and I missed you
I got myself washed
.....and I missed you
I got myself dressed
.....and I missed you
I came downstairs
.....and I missed you
I've only been awake a few minutes
And already I've missed you so much.
To those who've never lost a child,
Does that not make you understand?
Does that not make you see?
Just what my life is like now
How everyday is for me.
mummy misses you so much little man xxx
xxx my baby boy xxx
xxxJust letting you know I was here
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to leave my love , thinkin of you always mummy xx
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